Ok - once again - I get all caught up in Myspace and I forget about Live Journal - short attention span - sorry guys. However - what better way to update than with PICTURES!!! So I invite all of you guys to have a look around - and WAIT until you see my hair these days ;) These pictures are from the concert I went to in Atlanta. I still don't have my rolls of film developed, but these are what Amber took on the digital why we were there!!! Enjoy!


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Wow - been awhile once again. Its pretty bad when I start things out like that!!

So much has happened - its been so much fun and so amazing. Last Monday - Wednesday I was in Atlanta, GA and watched the Gwen Stefani and Black Eyed Peas Concert with one of my best friends Amber. IT WAS SO MUCH FUCKING FUN!!! I danced the whole time at the concert and our seat rocked!! I am now inlove with the Black Eyed Peas and I love Gwen that much more :) That place was packed. We got all dressed up (I'll post pics when I get them back)and we were on TV and got pulled out of line to be on the Radio. We were able to get these special VIP passes for this tent in which we could go get pictures taken. It was awesome!! I also got to spend some quality girl time with Ambie - which was awesome as well. We did have problem booking the hotel room (they tried to say I booked two rooms and charged me for it), but we got it straightend out and for all the trouble we went from a double room to a Suite - it rocked!!! So yes - pictures will come!

Lets see - on Friday - I become an "offical" girlfriend. Yup Yup. And his name is Amos. I meet him through Amber. She is dating this guy Kelly and its his brother. We have been talking to each other for over a month, but then lost contact - then it just kind of happened again last week. We went to her and Kelly's house before leaving for Atlanta and he was there. We started talking and spent some time together. Then when we got back on Wednesday I saw him again. Thursday night I went and stayed the night over there and we stayed up and talked most of the night - and decided to make the spark between us offical. :) So I now have a boyfriend - for the first time in 2 years - and WOW it sounds so weird to say. I like him though. He makes me smile and laugh - and he listens. :) Like last night he called and told me that he was thinking about me and missed me for no reason at all. He's a romantic - and its PERFECT for me :) He is very, very, very cute too. The hottest guy that I have ever dated in my life. So...we will see how this goes.

Everything else is going wonderful, besides Kelly's Jimmy broke down - and we have no ride now at all. We are all moved into the new place - and I LOVE IT. So much cheaper and so peaceful. I love it

Welp - I've gotta get ready to clock in for work. Peace and Love To All

First off Happy Late Birthday to Pepper and Heather! Sorry I didn't call either of you, but my phone has been turned off and I was sick.

Second - Hello to everyone else. Tonight I will be uploading some new pictures - and I shall be sharing them with everyone tonight or tomorrow. I've been caught up with alot of stressful situations - and I'm trying to calm myself down. So I just figured I would drop a line with the plans I have in mind. So ya'll keep looking.

Love and Peace to All

Forever Yours,
Brandi

So its been awhile. I am still alive, and I still keep up to date on this thing. I just don't get a chance to write alot. I really am into myspace right now - that stuff is addicting. Once again - if you are on here and you have a myspace ADD Me. My email is BrandiJean@gmail.com

So whats been up with me you might ask. Well I officially turned 22 on Monday. Can you believe it - Little ole me (for those who don't know me I am only 5'1" - so when I say Little I mean it)!!! It doesn't feel much different, but I just sit here thinking "Where in the world did 21 go?" It really did fly by. Not that the past couple years of my life haven't, but maybe because I wanted to be 21 so bad - and I didn't really care about turning 22 that much that it just kind of popped up on me.

Wow - this year has gone by so fast. I'm talking fast. I mean look at it - we are almost in October. Only a couple more friends have birthdays, another wedding in Novemeber and then BOOM it will be a whole new year. Next year is going to be amazing as well. Its so funny to think of us all getting older and actually doing grown up things in life these days. The strengths we have gained in friendships, and the failures that we have realized that some will never change. We have to learn to let go of things, and learn to accept the things that we can't change. We discover the world doesn't revolve around us - and that even when we are gone it will keep right on spinning.

22 and sometimes I feel like I'm 60. I guess Cancer and Chemo will do that too you. I sometimes wonder if I will ever be the person I once was, but slowly I am starting to see that I have changed. I will never be the person that I once was - no matter how hard I wish I could stop and turn back time. If I would have known then what I knew now - I would have never thought it could be possible. I am a better and stronger person because of what I have gone through in my life. I wouldn't change a moment of it. I ofcourse wish I didn't have to go through it, but since I can't take it back - I wouldn't change one single person. I am the person I am today because of it. I'm alittle more mature, alittle wiser, and alittle more caring than I once was. I am told I am an inspiriation even though I really can't see it for myself.

I hold my head high and dare to dream. Cause everyday is another day for my dreams to become reality.

So its been alittle while. I'm at work right now on a phone call and waiting for my lunch time. :) I'm hungry - so that is gonna be worth it :)

So - I got a new Tattoo this past Saturday. Its a shamrock on my back between my shoulder blades. Its green and yellow, and it has my name going down across it from the top left going through it to the bottom right. It has these black tribal like designs coming out of the sides of it as well. I am SOOO Inlove with it. It didn't hurt all THAT bad - it was the most pleasant feeling in the world, but I love it and thats what count. It only cost 60 dollars too. Matt (at Ricky G's) did it all by hand. I told him what I wanted and he just hand drew it and the letters and it only took like 30 minutes to get it on. It's already just about done scabbing - hardly did at all. So yay!!

Other than that - I'm addicted to MySpace :) I just love it and everything about it. So like I said before - if you have it you guys need to add me. My user name is sweetbrandijean. I have some new pics up there. I had no idea that so many people where on the website.

Welp - Gotta get to work. Wanted to let you guys know I'm alive :)

So if you want to add me (if you haven't already)

Username:SweetBrandiJean
or my email
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Hit Me Up!

So I'm at work again - yay. I had a very good weekend though. On Friday I had a Drs appointment and then I hung out with Alison and her kids. We got her daughters nails done for her birthday present and then we went to Wal-Mart. I put a bunch of stuff on layaway there for the new house I'll be moving into in Novemeber when our lease is up. I put all of my bathroom stuff on Layaway (almost all - missing a few little things) and I put some kitchen stuff on Layaway. My bathroom is gonna be done in a light purple and black. Then I'm gonna do the kitchen in White and Black. See - I don't know what our new place will look like - so I'm gonna keep it all basic as can be. White and Black is Safe. But I put away an 8 place setting dish set (was the big plates, little plates, and bowles), a 20 piece glassware set, and a set of pots and pans with lids. I Still have to put some more on layaway when I get this stuff out. I need a vaccum, microwave and things like that. I have the list at home. At my parents house I have some stuff there - which is awesome, because its less to buy.

Getting ready to decorate a new place is really fun. I was telling my Mom today and she was laughing at me. She said she's done it too many times, but she has also just painted the house and is getting awhole lot of new things alittle at a time. So she said she can understand how I'm excited over doing it for the first time. The first apartment I had I didn't even decorate - so this is awesome to me! I also talk to her about my feelings in wanting to go into Law - and she thinks its a wonderful idea. :) I Love My Mom - she's the best.

Tomorrow I'll be seeing her around 8am. I have a Drs appointment in Gainesville and alot that I need to talk to them about - and alot that they actually need to do. So its gonna be along day.

Lets see what else happened this weekend. OH - Saturday I got ready to go out to dinner with Alison, Kelly, Lily and her boyfriend Ed who flew in for the weekend. As we were waiting for Lily and Ed to come to the house - Barbee and Skuba showed up. I was so excited to see Barbee - she is due next Monday with her little boy!! I'm so happy - I took pictures of her and then of me and her. Then we all went to dinner at Phish Heads and then Drinking and Dancing at Legends. It was alot of fun - I had a blast. We got back to the house alittle before 1am - and Shannon and Evan showed up to stay the night with us! So that was nice as well.

Sunday we all got up before one and CLEANED and Cooked. Foley had decided to have a cook out. So Shannon and I made Cole Slaw, Deviled Eggs, and Mashed Potatoes. On top of cleaning like the whole house. The house looks good now, and the food was awesome. There was so much food left over we are gonna be eating Hamburgers for the next two weeks. Blah - but Kelly said that we will get creative as the time goes by. Last night I made him two Cheeseburgers and I ate the last HotDog.

Anyways - Today has been a short day...or so it feels like it. Tomorrow will be a LONG day for me. I hate having Drs appointments so early in the morning when I don't get off work until 1am. Doesn't that suck? But its my oncologist - the most important Dr of them all - so its not like I can skip out. Also its very important for me to go to all Drs appointments right now.

I hope everyone had a Great Weekend. Talk to Everyone Later!

Hello Everyone!

It's been awhile since I've given a proper update. I know I updated last night about the concert I'm going to in Nov, but that's not a real update.

My medical condition is getting better. I still have my moments, but we will find out more for soon in this coming month. Hopefully something will happen in my favor to keep me from hurting. I don't hurt all the time anymore, but I still hurt occassionally. Like the other night I was doubled over crying because my stomach was killing me. So I dunno. But I feel great other than that.

I'm very tired today. I only got like 2 hours of sleep last night - actually this morning. I went to bed at 7am this morning to alittle after 9am and got up and came to work at 10:30am. I've been here since then. I'm starting to feel the burn from lack of sleep thats for sure. I'm gonna be sleeping good tonight let me tell you!

Nothing else has been going on recently though. I've gotten back into working full time and I'm trying as hard as I can to make some overtime. I need the money - very, very badly!! Bill keep coming no matter if your sick or not. Being out of work all the month of June just killed me. BLAH.

However - as broke as I am and as poor as my check was last week - I did buy something for myself. I bought Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. I loved it. I thought it was very dark. I didn't cry - I was more in shock than anything else. But It was another good book in the series. The I'm still very partial to the 3-5th book. I don't really have a favorite. I probably should, but I just love the whole story line. I just like everything about it. I find things I like in each book and things I don't like in each book. Who doesn't. But as far as favorite - each book is built off the last and it all kind of is tied together in my eyes. Like George Lucas says "I look at Star Wars like One Movie"...I like of do the same for J.K Rowling books. Makes sense eh?

I'm happy with life in general right now. Nothing dramatic going on at the time being. My uncle Paul was released this week from the hospital this week. He will finally be allowed to get off his Blood Pressure Medication. He still cant walk that well, and his head is constantly hurting. He also can't remember things from short term memory. You tell him something and 20 minutes later he forgets. Every time mom talks to him he ask her the same questions - because the last thing he rememebers was me being in the hospital. So its alittle hard for everyonen to keep on telling him over and over what is going on. But he's alive and that's all that matters. At the start of all this we were told he wasn't going to make it, and he is still here.

Kelly and I watched Phantom of the Opera last night and I LOVED it. It was such a beautiful story with beautiful music. I could watch it over and over. We also have Million Dollar Baby and are in the process of downloading acouple other ones. I don't remmeber right now.

Anywys - nothing new as you can tell. I hope all is well with everyone else! I'll do a better job of updating!

On Novemeber 8th I will be in Atlanta, GA for the Gwen Stefani and Black Eye Peas Concert with Amber!! WooHoo.

I'm not a HUGE fan of the Black Eye Peas, but I like a couple of their songs. It could have been worse right.

But I'm excited. I haven't been to a concert in years.

It was this day...three long years ago...when all my troubles began.

It's not as hard as it once was. I guess time does make the pain ease. However - I still deal with the effects of it every day of my life. It changed my world...if I had only known then what I know now I wonder if I would have done anything different, and I really don't think I would have.

So here's a toast to the past...for making me the person I am today...for allowing me to be here today. I owe it all to you!

So after the whole MONTH of June being sick I finally got admitted to North Florida Regional Medical Center in Gainesville from July 1st - July 8th. It was a long stay with more test than I ever had in my life...and still nothing. They have a pretty good idea as to what it is, but we will find out more after I have another test on Tuesday and I go back to the specialist on August 1st. They found lesions on my stomach that are inflammed. Also my stomach doesn't empty correctly. I don't know what the deal is.

Anyways - I'm behind in reading and writting. I'm at work right now though so I shall talk to everyone later!

Lots of love!

Words can't express what I feel right now....take a look

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My Big Brother is 23 today...Happy Birthday Daniel...I Love you!!

Daniel and I have had a rocky relationship. When we were little we were close because we were all each other had. As we got older we grew apart and basically hated each other. I hated him because things always came easy to him and he always had the money situation in order. He hated me because I had so many friends and he thought things came easy to me. Over the past couple of years we have started to find some mutual ground. So today when I talked to him (wasn't long) but we talked and we both said I love you to each other. Huge Step for us. I love my brother though - he's a good guy.

I have bad news on my Uncle Paul. We found out that the by pass didn't work and he has a mass on the back of his head. They don't know if its a hard mass or if its fluid built up. He also according to my Grandmother has two new Brain Aneurysm on the other side of his head. They moved him from ICU to a regular room though and are trying to make him comfrotable. There is no surgery they can do. He also has a infection in his Pancreas and a blood clot in each arm. They went to bring him for a stress test since his Blood Pressure is still high and when they asked him the year of his birth he said 1819. When they asked him how old he was he said 27, he said he has 5 kids (he only has 4) and he thinks his youngest is 31. It's heartbreaking...it really is.

Anyways...I'll talk to everyone later.

Well Lets see. I'm not sure where I left off last. I know most of you know I was in the ER last Thursday, but all I had was a bacterial infection and I'm doing ok. I'm still in pain though most of the time though and it sucks, but I go to the Dr on Monday. So not that much longer now.

On Wednesday we went down to Tampa and stayed in my Grandma's hotel room during out stay there. On Wednesday Uncle Paul was brought down to surgery at around 7:30am. Mom, Grandma and I were the only ones in the waiting room and the people doing the surgery let us ride down in the elevator with him and kiss him goodbye before he went into the OR. He was able to say I Love You to us. :) 10 hours of surgery we had to just sit and wait. None of us left the hospital. We would take walks and go eat and stuff, but we didn't ever actually leave. I was on alot of pain medication and my cousin Cheri was just laughing at me. But after 10 hours of waiting the Dr told us the surgery was a success. :) He did very well through the surgery and the Dr said he was very happy with how everything went. We didn't get to see him till Friday and as soon as we walked into the room he was waving at all of us. :) It was great.

On Saturday we got there alittle after 9am and stayed till 3pm. It was me, mom, Grandma, and my cousin April with her little boy. So we got to spend alot of time with him. He thinks its 1984, but the Dr. said that will go away. Because when they had asked him who the president was he said Reagan (his fav. president) and then the Nurse said "Noo..." and my Uncle goes "Clinton". So he remembers the time he just gets confused with dates and all, but all this is apparently normal. He can also move every part of his body! No brain damage at all! So in two months the Drs. said my uncle should be back to normal! So yes its a wonderful thing :)

I've been so stressed out this whole month and I don't know whats going. There is suppose to be this Bar-B-Que thing this weekend, but the way I feel right now I don't think I'm going to be going. I feel all pukey and stuff. Not a nice feeling at all. :S Anyways. I've been out of work for 3 weeks now and it sucks. I'm bored out of my head.

Welp - I'm tired and I'm going to go and lay down for a bit. I'll talk to ya'll later on :)

I'll update more tomorrow...been a long week.

After 10 hours of surgery on Thursday - The Drs. expect my Uncle Paul to make a full recovery. He's done the impossible according to medical science. :)

The best news I've heard in forever!

I changed my user page around alittle bit. Give it a look and leave a comment. I finally added the thing Heather made me with the chorus to "The River" by Garth Brooks. For those of you who don't rememebr she used the picture of me Kristy took when I lost the lense to my sunglasses and didn't realize it at first. I'm good like that :) So give it a look over and leave a comment.

I'm leaving for Tampa in the morning with mom to go be with Uncle Paul again. He is having surgery on Thursday and all his sister's are gonna be there to be with him. Since his odds aren't that good we are all just praying for him right now.

I'm doing ok - On un-paid medical leave from work till the 28th. Drs orders. It sucks, but we will know more on the 27th. I've been popping pain pills like crazy. I haven't drank in almost a month either - I'm so proud of myself. I don't feel the need either right now, probably because I know it will make me hurt more if I do. I don't really know that, but I'm not taking the chance.

Anyways. I love you all.

Well I did wind up in the ER last night. I have a Bacterial Infection that is also causing pain and the Dr said that my appendix might be getting ready to have another attack. My white blood cell count is alittle high and there is a pain (dull) in my right lower side. No fever though. I'm on antibotics for now. They DR said he might see me back before Sunday.

We are leaving to go to Tampa on Wednesday to see my Uncle before his surgery. He has a fever they can't break, and his blood pressure is still high - but stable. He is going back in time to when he was little. Heartbreaking....

So life still sucks

It's been awhile, but things aren't to well. I have a new illness along with another tumor. Sorry to be blunt about it, but I have had to tell so many people in such a short amount of time. That and my Uncle Paul is at Tampa General and isn't doing well. For those who want more info please talk to Kristy - she knows the most at this point. I don't have a phone, but I keep in contact with her. So aslong as she doesn't mind feel free to ask.

I have a small tumor in my uterous, which isn't the most serious thing right now. I have what is called Diverticular Disease and it is VERY fucking painful. When I eat anything it hurts. Basically its like little pockets on my colon. It all was found when I got hospitalized last tuesday for a couple days when my colon had twisted on itself and I had no blood flow to my left side. They Drs. didn't do surgery which we have just found out he should have.

I'm going back to the ER here in a little while - I'm in mucho mucho pain. So I'm going to see whats up. This can require emgerency surgery. So....I just ask that everyone Pray. Please also Pray for my Uncle Paul...

I love you all